Shedding Light on the Dark Side
had my contact experience in 1985, I began to go out into the woods
alone at night to see if there would be a response from the visitors.
The initial contact had been pretty awful. I was terrified and beaten
up. I was raped, a fact it has taken me nearly twenty years to truly
wasn't all bad. In fact, it turned into fifteen minutes of a bad
experience followed by years of wonder and fascination as I developed a
relationship with the fearsome but marvellous presence I called `the
visitors.' My mind was expanded. I lived a life of highest adventure.
And not a hair was ever again harmed on my head.
groups of people to our cabin, who also had fantastic, life-changing
experiences of contact. During one of these joyous encounters, a witness
described the visitors as acting like some sort of `acrobatic troop' as
they leaped about in a roomful of people. Even the children became
involved, and we weren't scared when our son's friends reported
encounters, and their parents weren't concerned about sending them to
the cabin. In fact, many of them came in hopes of seeing the visitors,
and were often rewarded.
more, of the thousands of letters we received about contact, the vast
majority described wonderful or at least fascinating experiences. It
looked to me as if mankind was about to experience the very best thing
that had ever happened in history.
all changed. First, a kind of darkness entered our lives. We were driven
from the cabin by a frankly suspicious series of circumstances that
began with the theft of crucial financial records from our files. Then
my experience became subtly more sinister.
Beginning about five years ago, the reports also began to change. The
tales of wonder slowed down and finally stopped. There had always been
horror stories, of course. But they were extremely rare, in our
experience. Now, a "good" close encounter report is extremely rare. Most
of them are sinister and terrifying. I no longer call the visitors in
meditation. I fear what might show up. Now, I am thinking in terms of
how we close encounter witnesses can band together to protect ourselves,
and how we can warn the average person about the signs of the approach
of the visitors, so that they can run like hell.
totally frank. Something has obviously changed. It used to be that Budd
Hopkins and David Jacobs sounded like Cassandra's with their tales of
abduction terror. No longer. Some of the best documented cases ever are
recent ones, and they are ominous indeed.
intimately familiar with some of these cases and the experiences of the
people involved. They are good people. They are not lying. And it isn't
somehow their `fault' that they have, as some of our contact Pollyanna’s
would have it, attracted the dark side.
realist and what is now real is that the only thing that appears to be
left of the contact experience is the dark side. So that's what we have
to face now.
are two great dangers associated with the contact experience: first,
that witnesses will be led only into a state of fear about it and given
no way to overcome the fear and gain strength from what is happening to
them; second, that they will be led to believe that what is happening to
us is in some way loving, and they will innocently embrace a python.
really well-documented cases, such as the "Cynthia" case that Brian Vike
has reported so extensively on this website and on Dreamland, present a
picture of ugly, brutal and dangerous bullying of helpless human beings
by creatures that are, quite simply, monsters--and monsters in
possession of extremely good and extremely dangerous technology.
believe that there have been mutilation-murders. I cannot prove it,
because, in each case, the FBI has supposedly appeared on the scene and
stifled the flow of information. However, I know of nineteen cases of
Although I have no proof, no documentation, I have every reason to
believe that these cases are real, based on the way the information came
to me. One is from Colorado, the rest are all from the US Northeast.
be specific about what I do know. The Colorado case was being
investigated by Linda Howe when the coroner suddenly clammed up and
would offer no more information. But the body that had been found was
dreadfully mutilated, with the same sorts of injuries seen in
More recently, there was a bizarre case in Point Pleasant, Pennsylvania
that I discussed on the radio with Peter Davenport. Apparently the FBI
was present during this case, and an effort was made to suppress it and
even, oddly, to discredit the victim by claiming that he was a drug
user. The other seventeen cases were rumored to me by a medical
professional who knew a coroner in upstate New York. But the coroner was
told to keep them secret, and I never received any more information than
that. It's not much, admittedly, but it's very disturbing.
no idea how many of these cases may be out there, and the government
certainly isn't going to be talking about something so exceedingly awful
that it cannot control in any way.
may be a twentieth case developing now, assuming that the victim that
was heard screaming in agony and dread in Morehead, Kentucky the other
night is ever found. You can read researcher Kenny Young's report in our
Insight Section and subscribers can listen to a very disturbing
interview with him about this latest UFO terror case.
consider this case an intentional provocation on the part of the
visitors responsible. First, an object was seen by credible witnesses
that functioned in ways that definitely identified it as an unknown.
Then, after it shot away from ground level like a bullet, horrific
screaming was heard in the field where it had hovered. A woman was
screaming for help.
screaming caused a flood of calls to the police, who mounted an
extensive search and rescue within fifteen minutes, but nothing was
that this event was intended to spread terror. In my experience, the
visitors don't do things by accident. They did this to frighten the hell
out of those of us who know that it's real. Why? They obviously want to
see what kind of resistance we might mount. But also, and this must
never be forgotten: they WANT fear, they WANT suffering. So, no matter
how hard it is, no matter how dreadful the experience seems, always
remember: the lighter your approach, the more you can bring love and
even laughter to the process of protecting yourself, the better off you
human being probably suffered and possibly died in order to fulfill
their goal of spreading fear apparently matters not to them. Or, more
likely, that was a big part of the reason they did what they did.
beginning, I was concerned that mankind had been led by a combination of
government secrecy and scientific insanity into not addressing the
visitors in an organized way. In the early years, I saw this as the
waste of a grand opportunity. And it may have been. In any case, the
experience I had and what happens now seem to me to be very different
things, almost as if somebody good has left and somebody surpassingly
evil has remained here.
night, I received a call from a relative who told me that he'd just come
back from a night hike where one of the hikers had seen a black,
Again, I do not think that this was an accident. I have communicated
with the visitors for too long to make any such assumption. This was
meant as a warning to me. Again, an operation is under way. They want to
see what we will do.
Unfortunately, whatever that is, it will not be the kind of organized,
concerted action that would really be a threat to their activities. At
most, a few abductees and interested parties might be somewhat more on
their guard, but the visitors will remain free to do whatever they wish,
because no organized human social institution is going to acknowledge
their existence in any meaningful way--not government, not science, not
be warned. A few others. But for every person who can effectively resist
them--and it probably isn't all that hard, as long as you don't let them
get too close to you-- there will be millions who will remain totally
helpless and totally unaware.
became clear to me in about 1988 that the government was keeping major
UFO secrets, and therefore that it must be acting out of either
compulsion, necessity or extreme foolishness. I still don't know its
motive, but I suspect compulsion.
ignorant population is a helpless population, and the visitors seem to
need secrecy if they are to carry out their grotesque program, which
appears to involve kidnapping, the theft of genetic and sexual
materials, and, sometimes, murder. If they were powerful, they wouldn't
need secrecy and complex social control. They would simply do what they
wanted to do without caring how we reacted. But that's not how they
operate. They come by night, when we are sleeping. They capture using
surprise. Therefore, it seems possible that, if we were highly
organized, they would not be able to continue what they are doing, even
if we lacked weapons to stop them.
matters stand, even the most well prepared of us can easily be abducted.
A few things we can do may help, but, in the end, if they are intent on
doing this to somebody, they are going to do it.
means one thing to me: if we want protection, we need to figure out what
works and do it. Those of us who know that this is a real concern are
going to have to do what we can to help ourselves. Unless our social
institutions acknowledge the problem, the vast mass of humanity is going
to remain completely helpless.
written elsewhere that official acknowledgement itself may be a weapon
against us, in the sense that the visitors' ability to penetrate our
world may in some way be connected to our belief in their existence.
Fortunately, at the moment, the chances of meeting the visitors are
probably lower than the chances of dying in a car wreck or a fire. If
there is any chance at all that official acknowledgement would raise
that threshold, then I hope to God the government keeps its mouth shut.
But those of us on the front lines need to be prepared, and I am
convinced that we can be better off than we are now.
who spread the horror stories without offering any support see this as a
social issue. They're Paul Reveres. Their job, as they see it, is to
warn society of the menace and sound a call to alarm. If they seek any
kind of protection, it is via a process of government disclosure. The
hope is that their stories will compel the government to admit its folly
in concealing UFO realities, and that it will then afford us the
protection we need. I don't think that it can disclose. The picture that
presents itself is not one of a government acting foolishly. It is a
picture of a government being forced under extreme coercion of some sort
to keep secrets it does not want to keep. It is also a picture of a
government that is helpless to protect us, and will continue to be so.
benefit of disclosure would be that people would be warned. But if it
leads to an expansion of the threat, then who wants it?
thing we do know for certain: the visitors want a combination of two
things. They want people to be afraid or they would not be spreading
terror. And they want this to be secret because they apparently feel a
need for the element of surprise.
policy of the government to deny the existence of the visitors coincides
with their own policy of secrecy. Indeed, they are so secretive that
they actually erase memories, usually leaving people only with the
physical effects of their encounter experiences, or memories of just the
initiating moments, and nothing of the incident itself. Even the sense
of `missing time' is usually happened upon accidentally.
conventional call to alarm is going to matter because our society has
been manipulated into not responding to the existence of the visitors.
Because of official denial, our science has failed at every level to
address the reality of the visitors and now lives in a fantasy world
when it comes to them. Otherwise responsible scientists universally
ignore the plain and obvious physical evidence of their activities among
us. Supposedly responsible media outlets actually react to contact with
laughter, which has always been a fantastically delusional response,
given the evidence .
this evidence? First, it is the testimony of tens of thousands of human
beings. This testimony, much of it articulate and supported by
multiple-witness observations, has been tossed on the trash heap.
many people were reporting normal hallucinations, it would be regarded
as a frightening mental health epidemic and studied carefully.
Fantastically, these reports are not even regarded as a mental health
issue. They are ignored and not studied at all.
not a normal, rational choice on the part of behavioural scientists. It
is induced by social control at a higher level that affects the
scientific culture deeply.
is true of the physical evidence. Objects are frequently removed from
the bodies of close encounter witnesses, objects that cannot be
explained in any rational way except as intentional implants. The
objects are encased in membranes made from their own skin, membranes
that cannot occur naturally and that cannot be manufactured. Some of
these objects are without question scientific unknowns.
there has been no study of these objects and their appearance in the
human body, or the means of implantation. No scientific journal would
ever publish such a study, even if, by some miracle, it was given grant
money. The National Academy of Sciences takes the bizarrely
inappropriate position that UFOs are unworthy of scientific study. They
are the only observable natural phenomenon to receive this treatment.
scientist even to declare interest in this subject or any aspect of it,
is for him to place his career in immediate danger of destruction.
Should anybody apply for grant money for study of it—except, of course,
for study that is rigged to explain it in some innocuous and
non-threatening manner— they are liable to be forced out of their
employment, and likely out of their profession altogether. On this
week's Dreamland, researcher Ann Druffel tells the tragic story of a
prominent scientist who faced the evidence for what it is, and for his
trouble ended up a suicide.
Meanwhile, people like President Carter, who openly stated that, if
elected, he would reveal UFO secrets, and George W. Bush, who said the
same on at least two occasions, ignore the issue once in office. Within
the government, it's considered absurd even to address it. But deeper
inside, the reason is known. Somebody is enforcing our society's refusal
to address this issue, and I think that somebody is the visitors
encounter witnesses who do not buy the official line that they are
idiots, on the other hand, are hammered with three equally disempowering
messages: either that what is happening to them cannot be prevented,
that their dreadful experiences are somehow their fault, or that we all
we need to do is to get the government to acknowledge this and help us.
these messages are cruelly disempowering. They are guaranteed to abandon
witnesses to the control of the experience.
the government, science, the media and the some elements of the UFO
community are, in effect, banded together with a single large purpose:
to leave the people on the front lines of close encounter feeling
powerless, helpless and alone.
effort to keep us in ignorance is so extensive that it amounts to the
primary means that the visitors use to control the human species.
mission, even when I was not sure that my own close encounter
experiences were physical, or even negative, was to find ways of
empowering myself and others in the face of this unknown. When I was
having and seeing good experiences, I wanted to facilitate contact. Now
that contact has changed, I have changed. I want to find ways of
effectively protecting us.
the spreaders of disempowering messages to be de facto under the control
of the visitors, whether they are operating from some concealed agenda,
under some sort of mind control, or simply from their own fear. If you
preach fear without empowerment, as far as I am concerned, you're
working for them. The same is true if you preach the bald faced lie that
they are in some way loving toward us and that our fear is our fault.
This is pure fantasy, and also does their work for them, in that it
keeps us passive toward what is happening to us.
is to be done?
Unfortunately, ordinary means do not offer us any help. The government
is obviously unable even to warn people of the dangers involved.
Otherwise, it would have publicized the murders I have referred to and
openly studied things like implants and the physical effects of
abduction which, though little researched and poorly understood, appear
to be many.
amount of physical evidence is so extensive that research would be quite
easy. The truth is that the skeptics' lie that there is no physical
evidence of abduction is just that: a complete falsehood. There is, in
fact, an abundance of physical evidence readily available to science.
that protection will come from two things: mutual support and knowledge.
I don't think that abductee groups are the answer, though. I tried such
groups early on and they were a disaster. People with religious and
`space brothers' agendas rushed to them. Mentally ill and otherwise
disturbed people who want to ascribe their personal problems to the
stress of contact appeared, bringing their baggage with them. Even the
groups that came together well were, ultimately, unproductive. What can
we really do in these groups? In the end, they became repetitive and did
not offer what we need. Counselling and post-abduction support is
important, of course. But what we need is a means of controlling our
exposure to close encounters in the first place.
years ago, I was saying that what we needed was a means of perfecting
communication and learning how to live in the context of encounter. Of
course I was. Except for my initial experience, I'd had a wonderful
time. And I still can't fault it. The visitors took me beyond the edge
of known reality, and I saw spread before me hidden glories.
I am also a down-to-earth realist, and I am not seeing any of that sort
of thing anymore. We need to learn how to anticipate contact and how to
avoid it. If there are still visitors out there who have something good
to bring us, they'll find their own way, I feel sure. But right now what
we've got to deal with is awful, and the key to doing this is avoidance.
were not able to avoid them, they wouldn't need to sneak up on us as
they do. So knowledge matters. Social agreement matters. But our best
tools, the government with all its various resources and the scientific
community with its ability to explore and gather information, have been
denied to us by a process of clever social control, or possibly for good
reason, as discussed above, by the government itself.
abduction researchers offer no help, or `help' that's actually worse
than nothing. Being told that it's horrible and there's nothing to be
done except wait for `disclosure' that will never come doesn't help. It
freezes us and tells us we are impotent until and if our captured or
neutered government acts. Being told idiotic things like we made an
"agreement" of some sort with the visitors "on the soul level" to go
through this is shameful and childish rubbish.
frank, physical level, the only things that I know help are two:
in heavily populated areas, especially at night.
every few years. In recent years, Anne and I have moved seven times,
are typical of witnesses. However, running is ultimately not an answer.
informed helps. Knowing the signs of possible visitor involvement in a
given area helps.
these signs? Listen to the interview with Kenny Young. All the signs are
present in this case. The first is the presence of UFOs in the area. The
visitors often, but not always, make their presence known in this way,
perhaps because they cannot conceal the craft, or do not care to.
know that the media won't provide useful information about their
presence. Another way to find out is to visit the National UFO Reporting
Center often. This isn't a perfect system, but its the best we have.
second sign is if you should notice any manifestations around you. If
you actually see a UFO, for example. Or if your area suddenly becomes
extremely quiet. Birds and animals stop, insects stop. An eerie silence
falls. If this is followed by an eruption of animal sounds—dogs howling
and barking, cats pacing, wildlife squalling, it means that the visitors
are on the ground.
Personally, I would stay awake and together in a lighted room. Don't
venture out. Don't express any interest in them. And if there is the
least sign of their presence near you— knocking on walls, sudden shadows
flashing about in the house, your pets becoming agitated—do not go to
sleep no matter how sleepy you get. Fight it. Turn on music, the TV,
make phone calls. And don't go to sleep in the predawn. The hours from
three until sunrise are favorite contact times. Stay awake until well
after dawn, when the world is active again.
Ultimately, as a species, we have no escape from this. Even if the
government were to announce that the visitors were entirely real, and
publish all it knows about them, and do everything it possibly could now
or in any conceivable future to free us from them, we would not succeed
in escaping them. In fact, no amount of struggle is going to dislodge
not from the world, anyway. But from your life—yes. You can help
yourself. It is not only about avoiding encounter, it is about coping on
a personal as well as a social level.
the question, `why have the visitors changed,' maybe they haven't. Look
at what's happened from another perspective. What if astronauts from
earth discovered another world. Perhaps, for a time, strict rules of
contact that respected the native population would be observed. Maybe,
though, in time, those rules would be relaxed, especially as travel to
the new world became easier and cheaper.
Exploitative people would arrive, people carrying their religious and
ideological agendas. These would be lesser people than the noble
astronauts—believers and fanatics intent on imposing their fantasies on
the helpless aliens. Then there would be those seeking resources of some
kind, who wanted results and didn't care how they got them. And there
would be the evil, the sadists, the scum.
whatever reason, I think we have been left to the exploiters and the
scum. Who knows? Maybe the good guys gave up or lost a war. Maybe those
of us who got good treatment were simply being deceived.
point is, we must always approach this from a practical standpoint, and
at the present time, contact is awful and dangerous. If the visitors
want it to be different, then they need to find a way to change it. For
our part, we must seek to find the good in our own souls, and let the
dark presence that slips along the paths of the night know that we know
it is there, and we will do everything we can to avoid it.
journal entries get a lot of comment, and for that I am so grateful to
you. Some of it is quite, quite wise, and I thought that this, from a
knowledgable abductee, is particularly valuable. Take it to heart. This
recent journal entry, "Shedding Light on the Dark Side," you advise
people who suspect visitors are present to:
would stay awake and together in a lighted room. Don't venture out.
Don't express any interest in them. And if there is the least sign of
their presence near you— knocking on walls, sudden shadows flashing
about in the house, your pets becoming agitated—do not go to sleep no
matter how sleepy you get. Fight it. Walk. Turn on music, the TV, make
phone calls. And don't go to sleep in the predawn. Not until the sun
been through such experiences and am now undergoing one of the most
brutal and extended, along with my two children. One of the most
important keys to psychological survival is humor. Your suggestions are
all excellent, but the manner in which you present them suggests an
atmosphere of paralyzing dread. It is imperative to take whatever steps
you must to dispel that atmosphere. Fear feeds this experience, almost
literally. Confidence is also critical.
"Frankly, I feel this is so important, I'd wish you'd add an addendum
stressing this point. I know it would help many people out there having
a tough time."